Hey!

Just felt like checking in. I still do not have internet. But I am surviving. Quick little update...

I am staying active art wise
Passing all my classes. Really liking the Trimester system
Still needs a job
My jaw hurts


Look at my other acount cor some new stuff photography wise....

Thats all. Sorry

YAY!! today I got to move in!! I am just so happy that we were able to get a place. Today was my first time seeing it, and I am impressed. It is a two story apartment, so there is plenty of room for my sister and I. We both have to share a room and I am not disappointed with the arrangements. Though when I was setting up the bed supports I had it for a queen size, where I only needed a twin. So the bed looked HUGE and would leave no room.

I should be unpacking...but instead I am sitting in a corner on a laptop typing out this journal, along with nursing a stomach ache.

Well will post more when the main computer get hooked up and running. I should have some internet sooner too.

Ok I know that I just posted a journal three days ago but this is so amasingly _{if that is even a word} amasing that I had to post another. First off the reason that I have been able to do so is because I have been at my grandparents house a lot lately.

BACK ON TOPIC...

We have got an apartment and will be moving in next week!! That means I will have all my stuff with me again. _{Oh how I have missed it.} I have not seen the place yet but my Mom said that it is big for an apartment. I just can not wait to get settle in. Though I might not have internet for a couple more weeks. I do not care about that so much. I can always just steal 's or 's computers if needed.

Thats all for now,
I am so freaking excited.

So I am totally in rant mode right now. Why? Simple. Everything around me has suddenly been pushed in reverse. It is baffling, yet I feel as though I understand it. UUghh, and my mind is in such an uproar, an I keep plotting/explaining things that will never happen. Yet because of my past situations thats what my thought process has evolved into. All "what ifs?" I am not saying that it is a bad thing, it is wonderful actually, everything just seems at peace even with all the poo that has been chucked in.

Not much has changed living wise, but I am seeing the true side of some people who I though would give more support. It is a case of just because your happy does not mean that you are welcomed. It troubles me a lot, but I have not accepted it as the way things will be. Even if it is. Sorry if I am confusing you in any way. This is how things have become and I have taken quite the liking to it. Such an indirect way of expressing something that would be difficult for me in any other way of writing/typing.

In actual news, I have again tried to alter my way of drawing due to the fact that my mind see's my characters diffently. Plus having only five pages left in my sketch book is making me focus on wanting a new one. The people I try to draw make me very irritated and I know that I am not giving it my all. I want to. There just isn't the right kind of connection there right now. I belive that I blocked it off with some negative feeling that I denied to others and myself were not there. Thus blocking the fluidness of thoughts that could pass from my mind to my hand. Sounds lame but thats what I feel. I do keep trying to draw them(people) so eventually the blockage will be cleared through. The thoughts that keep coming to mind are wonderous and all I wish to do is recreate them on paper, but I can not.

Ok now I am gettin tired and will soon start to make even less sense. We do not want that. Plus I have to get up early tomorrow. One of the plus sides to this is that it is raining and should still be raining when I wake. Lets hope.

Hey just checking in.

LIVING
My living situation is kinda looking up for the time being. Lets just keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best. My mom says that she is getting a good vibe from this place we applied for. I feel as soon as we get our own place to stay things will be on a roll. I can apply for a job, get better exersise, eat better, even though I have lost five pounds, and just start anew.

SCHOOL
Ah, school. Such a "fun" topic to touch on. Actually I am doing better this year. Not failing any classes, most likely I have a B average. It shows that I am getting my work done and scorring enough to stay afloat. I just need to study better for my Anatomy/Physiology tests, quizes, and exams. I do happen to be passing my math tests with flying colors, which is a HUGE self-esteem booster.

ART
I am on a roll this year. My breath section is so vibrant and, well, spread out. I got a morbid picture out of my system so that makes way for much more positivity in my other work. Which will help greatly when it comes to my focus pieces. Which, as I have said before, are going to be charater design/concept sheets. I cannot wait for when I start on those. It might not be until next trimester. I hope to get some pictures of some of my class work to upload so my gallery does not look so old and drab. Speaking of new stuff, as I have warned before, there will be HUGE sketch dumps along the road that will show that I have not been sitting on my arse all this time with my finger up my nose.


Beth <------(I am in a mood)